Kesha has opened up about her battle with an eating disorder [Getty]
Kesha has had an incredibly turbulent time over the past few years, battling much-publicised legal battles with her label and former producer, and now the Tik Tok singer has bravely revealed details about how she conquered an eating disorder.
After admitting that she felt that she had to “be a certain size,” and took increasingly extreme measures to get there, the pop star, who recently released her comeback album Rainbow, confessed: “I really just thought I wasn’t supposed to eat food.
“And then if I ever did, I felt very ashamed, and I would make myself throw up because I’d think, “Oh, my God, I can’t believe I actually did that horrible thing. I’m so ashamed of myself because I don’t deserve to eat food.”
The Tik Tok singer says she “felt very ashamed” if she ever ate [Getty]
Shockingly, the singer went on to admit: “I was slowly, slowly starving myself. And the worse I got and the sicker I got, the better a lot of people around me were saying that I looked.”
The 30 year old said she finally realised she was battling with a complex eating disorder while at a dinner party with friends and family.
“I was like, “Oh, my God, what if they walk outside and see this food in a bush? Or they see it in the garbage can?” And I just had all this mounting anxiety,” she confessed to Rolling Stone magazine.
The singer has revealed the exact moment she knew she was battling with an eating disorder [Getty]
“Finally I was like, “F***. This. Sh***. F*** this. I’m hungry!” And I am so anxious that I feel like I’m going to explode from all the secrets.
“All the secret times I’m pretending to eat or other times I’m purging, and I’m trying to not let anybody know. And I’m just f***ing sick of this shit,” she continued.
“And I remember just shaking because I was so fed up, so anxious, and I was just mad that I had let myself get to that point” admitted the pop star.
Kesha sought help for her condition after opening up to her family about her battle [Getty]
Realising that she couldn’t continue living the way she was, Kesha said she immediately arranged to meet her mother at a nearby petrol, and admitted to her that she had a problem.
Shortly after, the singer checked into rehab and began working with a nutritionist to help conquer her battle with the eating disorder.
Kesha remarked: “I just remember crying into a carbohydrate, being like, “I can’t eat it. It’s going to make me fat, and if I’m fat, I can’t be a singer because pop stars can’t eat food – they can’t be fat”.”