Kelly Osbourne recently opened up on her Instagram stories about the fact that she relapsed after four years of sobriety. She said that she’d always promised to be honest about her recovery and that “I relapsed, I’m not proud of it, but I’m back on track.” In a new interview with Extra, Kelly opened up more about her reasoning for that, saying she thought she could drink again because everything was going well for her. She’s promoting a new podcast she has coming out with her boyfriend.
Kelly said, “I don’t know why my nervous breakdown happened at the end of the lockdown, I made it all the way through, everything was great and my life was perfect. I’m that girl that when everything is going great I need to f*** it up a little and make everything a little bit worse in my life. I am an addict and had thought that I had a enough time under my belt and I could drink like a normal person, and it turns out I cannot and I will never be normal. I don’t know why I even tried it. It’s not for me and it took me a matter of days and I was like done, not doing this.”
Osbourne said she doesn’t feel like she went back to square one. “This is something I am going to battle for the rest of my life. It’s never going to be easy. Through being accountable and owning your own journey and sharing what you can go though you can help other people. That’s why I came clean, I could have sat here and nobody would know.”
As for what triggered it, Kelly said, “I got all of my career goals happening… and then I got happy cause I got this incredible boyfriend and everything in my life is so great and I’m like I’m not an addict anymore… On top of that pandemic fever… It all just got too much….
Kelly also recently losing 90 lbs., saying, “Okay, so that’s the whole thing. Everyone was so, like, caught up in how, how I look. They never asked me how I felt. And the truth is I was so f–king happy and I felt amazing.” Adding, “I did it for me. I did it because I wanted to live. What I saw in the mirror… I wanted the body to match the mind, because I, I spent so much time working on my mind and then I spent a year working on my body and now it’s about the soul… did the mind, the body, now the soul.”
In about three months I’ll have five years of sobriety. I had two years sober in my early 30s and it took way too long for me get back to that. While some people can go back to drinking “normally,” I absolutely know that I cannot, because I tried that over and over again for so many years. There’s no upside to me having a drink and I know this.
Kelly Osbourne is a jerk and I do not like her at all, but she deserves some credit for being honest about this, and about her thought process. There will always be an excuse to drink, and Kelly’s, that everything was going well, is common. The other, that the pandemic has been incredibly hard on us, is another. All of those make some sense, but when you’re an alcoholic or an addict going back to your drug of choice is the absolute worst decision. I got help with Smart Recovery, their worksheets helped give me the motivation I needed to change. The book Stop Drinking Now was really helpful too. AA helped me stay sober early in recovery and while I don’t follow their program I still go to (online) meetings when I need a reminder. I don’t want to take my misery back. Good for Kelly for figuring it out and being open about it.
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