Britney Spears admits to suffering ‘serious mental trauma’ from her conservatorship: Pop star, 40, claims ordeal has left her with nerve damage and she’s unable to breathe ‘normally’ around people
- The 40-year-old’s controversial conservatorship was terminated after 13 years last November
- The Toxic hitmaker said she refuses to see a doctor about her pain due to being ‘terrified’ after her conservatorship – but that the pain goes away with dance
- She wrote: ‘When I just feel the presence of a person I immediately freeze and have to catch my breath’
- ‘I do believe that when I was in that place I may have gotten serious mental trauma from not breathing normally’
- The superstar’s medical condition comes as a result of time she spent at medical facility that she was placed in against her will back in 2019
Britney Spears has detailed the ‘serious mental trauma’ she endured from her conservatorship, which she claims has left her unable to breathe normally when ‘looking at people’s faces.’
The pop icon, 40, whose controversial conservatorship was terminated after 13 years last November, took to Twitter on Wednesday to reveal she had sustained nerve damage to the right side of her body as a result of not breathing properly.
The Toxic hitmaker said she refuses to see a doctor about her pain due to being ‘terrified’ after her conservatorship – but that the pain goes away when she dances.
Candid: Britney Spears has detailed the ‘serious mental trauma’ she endured from her conservatorship, which she claims has left her unable to breathe normally when ‘looking at people’s faces.
She wrote: ‘When I just feel the presence of a person I immediately freeze and have to catch my breath.
‘I do believe that when I was in that place I may have gotten serious mental trauma from not breathing normally. My nerve damage shoots through my hand, up to my back, neck and to the right side of my head!
‘I feel paralyzed sometimes because it feels like pins and needles just stinging! I don’t feel it all the time but when I do it’s just scary and I know something is not right!
‘Well I’ve given up on people but I do have hope when I dance and sing in praise.
Heyday: The pop icon, 40, whose controversial conservatorship was terminated after 13 years last November, took to Twitter on Wednesday to reveal she had sustained nerve damage (pictured 2001)
‘It’s weird I don’t feel the nerve damage when I dance, maybe that’s my inner child’s mind letting go and surrendering. It’s trust, belief and God knows I’m not a professional but I am able to feel something in those moments.
‘I have so many advisors saying every day “Good news, the lower people go, the more you should take the high road”.
‘Or how about I fall from heaven and greet them in hell and scare the motherf*****g s**t out of them! I mean, I’ve been here before and let me tell you my horns are extremely kind. But I warn you in retrospect I can also be the meanest, but how mean?
The star said she ‘talks to horses’ as she can ‘no longer stand looking at people’s faces anymore’, writing: ‘My heart skips and I stop breathing normally. I recently found out that when I don’t get enough oxygen to the brain I feel nerve damage on the right side of my body,
Health issues: The Toxic hitmaker said she refuses to see a doctor about her pain due to being ‘terrified’ after her conservatorship – but that the pain goes away when she dances
‘My hands go numb every night when I go to sleep, it’s not my fault but I will say it’s pretty f*****g painful!
‘I haven’t even gone to a doctor about it, why? Because I’m terrified them after what they did to me before.
‘I lost my faith in God. I miss having conversations with enlightened people. When you connect with people like that and feel accepted loved and scared, that’s when miracles.
Britney went on to slam ‘trashy’ documentaries about her, which she claimed were full of lies.
She wrote: ‘I wish I could go inside the heads of people like my dad and her and really try to understand why people lie and make up such things like that!
‘Wasn’t it already bad enough what they did to me and on top of it everybody is getting together and doing the trashiest docs I’ve ever seen in my life saying IT’S TO HELP ME?
‘You must be some clever folks. It was so embarrassing. I think the meanest part was the deception in claiming it was to help me! The embarrassing five minute talk my stylist did crying on camera about my dad taking my phone away and then talking about my boys, it was humiliating.
Pain: She wrote: ‘When I just feel the presence of a person I immediately freeze and have to catch my breath’
‘Just the concept in of itself of people actually watching it was low! And no I don’t think it helped me. Just by my word speaking out and saying what they did to me alone was enough, should I say it again?
‘Enough, I am a person. I’m not a robot or a science experiment like the analyzed me in that place
‘I’m a valued soul so for the documentaries that were done on me, they were trash and nothing more trash, period!!!Should I go there? Lets get to the point! Every person who sat there in those docs knew, or if they didn’t know, could have found out where they were keeping me.
‘I needed real people to go to the cops and say “Jesus Christ, what is going on?? Aren’t there labor laws?
‘The girl has been working life a dog. So my so called friend wait to speak in trash documentaries. Where was the passion to help me when I called them in that place?
‘When they realized I finally got to speak at court for the first time and revealed what was done?
Over: The conservatorship placed on Britneyby her father Jamie (pictured) ended last year
‘I feel like they felt bad and said we will help her now but to me it looked like it was for show.
‘I miss my love of people I miss feeling accepted and not feeling bullied or scared of the people I would literally die for.
‘I miss the opening of my mind and surrendering to love and feel in love with someone else. The reflection of falling in love with someone else that makes you fall back in love with yourself.
Last week Britney took to her Instagram page and revealed to her 41.7 million fans and followers that she had nerve damage on the right side of her body.
The superstar’s medical condition comes as a result of time she spent at medical facility that she was placed in against her will back in 2019.
She opened up about the health issues she’s been experiencing while sharing a video to Instagram, revealing there’s’ no cure’ for the nerve damage, which causes pain and numbness.
‘I’m dancing in time now Victoria … yes … nerve damage on the right side of my body … there’s no cure except God I guess,’ she began in the caption, without explaining exactly who Victoria is.
She continued: ‘nerve damage is caused sometimes when you don’t get enough oxygen to your brain … your brain literally shuts down … blah blah blah old story … in that place I didn’t breathe when I was there … nerve damage causes parts of your body to go numb.’
Serious symptoms: Last week the Toxic singer wrote that there’s’ no cure’ for her nerve damage and that the pain and numbness has affected her sleep 3 times a week’
Spears revealed she wakes up ‘like three times a week in bed with my hands are completely numb’ and feelings of ‘pins and needles’ on the right side of her body.
‘It shoots up to my neck and the part that hurts the worst is my temple on my head … it stings and it’s scary,’ she explained, adding how ‘the last 3 years since I got out of that place I’ve been in a mild unconscious state … I couldn’t face it.’
‘That place’ appears to be a reference to the medical facility Spears was put into against her will in 2019, which she’s called out repeatedly.
‘It was like it was too scary to be here … although my instagram has been not up to par to most … hey hey hey it gave me existence and got me here,’ she continued, before sharing that she does’t ‘feel the pain when I dance.’
‘It’s like my mind literally goes to a place of my inner child. And although I don’t move like I use to … I truly believe my faith in it gave me strength … by the grace of God I finally found a medication where I actually feel oxygen going to my brain and through my neck,’ she wrote.
She went on to share that her health issues have gotten ‘a lot better’ in more recent times.
‘My eyes are more open now and I can hold my head up correctly … I’ve done a good job trying to pull it off. Either way I’m getting a lot better, I can breathe … I feel smarter because well, Jesus I can breathe now … either way, I’m breathing now and I can dance in time, Victoria … I send all my love to every single one of you … this is me this morning … I’m gonna vacuum now !!!’ she ended the post
Trauma: The star said she ‘talks to horses’ as she can ‘no longer stand looking at people’s faces anymore’ (the star is pictured in the 2000s)
Last year it was claimed that the Toxic singer was forced onto birth control while she was under her 13-year-long conservatorship, that was terminated last November.
In a court hearing in June last year, Britney spoke out against her conservatorship publicly, as she said she feels ‘traumatized’ by the controlling system she has been placed under.
She said: ‘I am not happy, I can’t sleep. I’m so angry, it’s insane. And I’m depressed. I am traumatized. I just want my life back.
‘I want to end this conservatorship without being evaluated. This conservatorship is doing me way more harm than good. I deserve to have a life, I’ve worked my whole life. I deserve to have a two to three-year break.’
The Baby One More Time hitmaker accused her father and her conservatorship team of refusing to allow her to marry her boyfriend or have children with him.
Britney claimed her conservators have made her get an IUD as a form of birth control so she cannot currently have children, even though she wanted to ‘get married and have a baby.’
She added: ‘I have an IUD inside of myself so that I don’t get pregnant, but [my team doesn’t] want me to have any more children.’
The star slammed her situation as ‘abusive’, and even called for her father and those involved with her conservatorship to be ‘jailed’.
She fumed: ‘They have me going to therapy three times a week and to a psychiatrist.
‘I truly believe this conservatorship is abusive. I don’t feel like I can live a full life. In the meantime, I want this therapist to come to my home, I’m not willing to go to Westlake … They set me up by sending me to the most exposed places. I need your help.
‘My dad and anyone involved in this conservatorship, including my management … they should be in jail.’
Following Britney’s remote appearance in court, Jamie Spears’ legal team released a statement insisting he ‘loves his daughter very much’.
They said: ‘He is sorry to see is daughter suffering and in so much pain. Mr Spears loves his daughter very much.’
TIMELINE OF BRITNEY’S COMPLEX CONSERVATORSHIP AND HOW IT BEGAN
Britney with her father, brother and mother in 2006. Her parents separated
2002: Jamie Spears and Lynne Spears divorce.
Britney breaks up with Justin Timberlake around the same time.
2004: Britney marries Kevin Federline.
2005: Britney and Kevin welcome their first child, Sean Preston Federline.
2006: Jayden James Federline, Britney and Kevin’s second child, is born.
2007: Britney, struggling through a custody battle and split with Kevin, shaves her head and attacks a paparazzo’s car.
2008: Jamie Spears files for conservatorship of Britney, claiming she is not legally well enough to make her own decisions.
Britney in 2008 for a custody hearing as part of her split with Kevin Federline. Jamie Spears in court in 2008 getting the conservatorship
2009-2019: QUIET CONSERVATORSHIP YEARS
The conservatorship – which had been temporary – is extended every year.
In court papers, Jamie’s attorneys describe how she is making more money.
JANUARY 2019: THE ARRANGEMENT STARTS TO CRUMBLE
Britney in 2019, in the grips of the conservatorship, in Las Vegas at her residency
Britney announces an ‘indefinite’ work hiatus and cancels her lucrative Las Vegas residency.
Jamie files paperwork asking for the conservatorship to be extended beyond California, to apply in Hawaii, Louisiana and Florida as well.
He steps down as her primary conservator after allegations he abused one of her sons but is still listed as one of those in charge.
EARLY 2020: Britney, Jamie and Jamie-Lynne are in Louisiana together for two weeks.
The #FreeBritney movement is picking up.
Jamie’s attorneys claim everyone is happy together and enjoying spending time together in quarantine.
NOVEMBER 2020: Britney’s attorneys claim in papers that she is afraid of her father and asks for Bessemer Trust to be put in charge.
Her fans start speculating over her cryptic Instagram posts and videos that she wants a way out.
DECEMBER 2020: The conservatorship is extended until September 2021.
FEBRUARY 5, 2021: Framing Britney Spears debuts on Hulu.
The conservatorship that Britney was put under is ordinarily used in situations where older, perhaps senile people, can no longer look after their own affairs.
Fans are concerned for her well-being and have demanded that she be released from the control of her father, Jamie
It gives control over to an appointed conservator for the best interest of the recipient but in most cases, the recipient is not healthy enough to make their own money, unlike Britney who makes millions. Under the rules of the probate conservatorship, Jamie now has equal control over her estate to a third party and an attorney, Andrew Wallet.
Wallet derives a salary of $426,000 a year from Britney’s estate.
He, Jamie and the third party who was brought on recently can make deals on her behalf and restrict her visitors.
JUNE 23, 2021 – BRITNEY SPEAKS OUT IN COURT
Britney and her boyfriend Sam Asghari
In an emotional testimony, Britney told the court that she had suffered psychologically for years as a result of the conservatorship which she said was so restrictive, she wasn’t allowed to remove her IUD birth control.
JUNE 30, 2021 – JUDGE DENIES BRITNEY’S REQUEST TO REMOVE JAMIE
Judge Brenda Penny, responding to Britney’s November 2020 request, refuses to remove Jamie from the agreement.
She doesn’t say why but she does invite her attorney to file paperwork to end it, which he doesn’t.
JULY 1, 2021 – BESSEMER TRUST RESIGNS AFTER BEING PUT IN CHARGE WITH JAMIE
A day after the judge’s ruling, Bessemer Trust, which had been brought on, resigned, saying they were never aware that Britney wanted to end the conservatorship.
In a court filing, the company’s attorneys said: ‘We heard her and respect her wishes.’
JULY 5, 2021 – BRITNEY’S LONG-TIME MANAGER RESIGNS
Larry Rudolph wrote a letter to Jamie and the conservatorship to say he was no longer needed since Britney wanted to retire.
He said he hadn’t spoken to her for two years but had been told by others that she wanted to step down.
JULY 6, 2021 – BRITNEY’S ATTORNEY STEPS DOWN
Sam Ingham, the attorney appointed to represent Britney in 2008, steps down after failing to file paperwork to terminate the conservatorship, despite her pleas.
JULY 14, 2021 -BRITNEY WINS RIGHT TO CHOOSE HER OWN LAWYER
A Los Angeles court granted Britney the right to choose a lawyer to help her end her conservatorship, after she told a judge the current situation was ‘allowing my dad to ruin my life.’ She chose former federal prosecutor Mathew Rosengart as her new attorney.
JULY 23, 2021 – BRITNEY FLASHES HER BOOBS ON INSTAGRAM
Singer’s semi-nude post was hailed by fans including Paris Hilton as evidence of her determination to become a ‘free woman’.
JULY 27, 2021 – LYNNE SPEARS AGREES TO TESTIFY IN SUPPORT OF HER DAUGHTER
The singer’s mother’s attack on Jamie gives her a powerful new ally in her bid to be freed.
AUGUST 12, 2021 – JAMIE SPEARS AGREES TO STEP DOWN AS CONSERVATOR
Jamie’s lawyers filed court documents saying that he will step down, and provide an orderly transition to another conservator.
He said that he was doing so because he felt a public argument with his daughter was not in her best interests.
SEPTEMBER 7, 2021 – JAMIE SPEARS FILES TO END THE CONSERVATORSHIP
Jamie states that his daughter ‘is entitled to have this Court now seriously consider whether this conservatorship is no longer required.’
The filing went on to say that Britney Spears’ circumstances have changed ‘to such an extent that grounds for establishment of a conservatorship may no longer exist.’
SEPTEMBER 29, 2021 – JAMIE SUSPENDED FROM CONSERVATORSHIP
LA Superior Court Judge Brenda Penny ruled to suspend Jamie as the conservator of Britney’s estate.
Accountant John Zabel has been named as the temporary replacement conservator.
NOVEMBER 2, 2021 – JAMIE FILES TO END THE CONSERVATORSHIP IMMEDIATELY, RELINQUISHING ALL FINANCIAL CLAIMS
Jamie Spears filed court documents declaring that he was leaving the arrangement immediately, handing over all documents, and not seeking any financial benefit.
NOVEMBER 12, 2021 – JUDGE TERMINATES BRITNEY’S CONSERVATORSHIP
A Los Angeles judge ordered an end to the conservatorship that controlled Britney’s life – and $60 million fortune – for the 13 years.
‘The court finds that the conservatorship of the person and estate of Britney Jean Spears is no longer required,’ Judge Brenda Penny told a LA Superior court hearing – where Britney did not appear.
‘Therefore, as of today, the conservatorship is hereby terminated.’
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