‘It breaks my heart that I won’t see her grow up’: Lauren Goodger feels baby Lorena is ‘still there’ because her bump is ‘not shifting’ – two weeks after the newborn’s tragic death
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She tragically lost her baby Lorena on July 8 – just minutes after she was born.
And an emotional Lauren Goodger has now tragically admitted it feels like the newborn is ‘still there’ since her bump is ‘not shifting’ and is still showing.
In an interview with New magazine just weeks after her tragic loss, the former TOWIE star, 35, said: ‘It shouldn’t happen. It breaks my heart that I won’t see her grow up.’
‘It breaks my heart that I won’t see her grow up’: Lauren Goodger has tragically claimed it feels like her late baby Lorena is ‘still there’ since her bump is ‘not shifting’
Revealing doctors spent eight minutes attempting to resuscitate her second child, Lauren explained how she had originally planned for a home birth.
It was when her midwife could no longer detect a heartbeat that the TV personality was rushed to hospital, with contractions starting two days after her waters broke.
Confessing she was screaming outside Queen’s Hospital in Romford, Essex as he daughter’s head emerged, Lauren was later told her umbilical cord had knotted in two places and wrapped itself around the baby’s neck in the womb.
Lauren told the publication she ‘never ever thought I would have to plan a funeral for my child’ and that her ‘unsettled’ body feels like it’s like it’s ‘missing a newborn’.
Tragic: In a new interview just weeks after her tragic loss, the former TOWIE star, 35, said: ‘It shouldn’t happen. It breaks my heart that I won’t see her grow up’
She continued: ‘I’m healing. I’m still bleeding – I feel like I’ve been run over.
‘I’m not getting anywhere by blaming myself. I have to try and move forwards and accept it. First I need to understand it. She was just perfect.’
Having been accompanied by her boyfriend Charles Drury, 25, the pair went on to spend 24 hours with Lorena where they took photos – which she now carries around with her – and had casts made of her hands and feet.
Lauren has also claimed she’s not ready to consider trying for another baby and wouldn’t opt for a natural birth again, instead choosing a C-section.
The influencer recently spoke to The Sun about her experience, revealing she ‘stayed awake all night with her newborn, kissed and bathed her and sang to her.’
‘I stayed awake all night with my baby and bathed and kissed her’: Lauren recently discussed the tragic loss of her newborn daughter Lorena as she plans her funeral (stock image)
Lauren has been supported by Petals – a regional baby loss charity who are partnered with The Queen’s Hospital.
She said: ‘The hospital and Petals were amazing. Lorena stayed with me the whole time. I bathed her and put her in a white baby grow which belonged to Larose. It was beautiful.
‘I held her and kissed her. I sang to her and we played songs. She just looked like she was asleep.’
Lauren, who is also mother to Larose, 12 months, with partner Charles said that family and friends came to the hospital to support her and it was a ‘very emotional evening.’
Sad news: Lauren paid tribute to her daughter Lorena who passed away on July 8 – she is her second daughter with boyfriend Charles Drury
Having stayed awake all night, Lauren praised the charity who came the next day to have her hand and feet prints done and casts.
They also gave her a lock of Lorena’s hair and gave her a special candle and a photographer took photos which friends placed in a locket for her.
Lauren had planned for a natural water birth, to be carried out at her Essex home under the supervision of her midwife Tamzin – who had previously delivered the TV personality’s first child Larose.
Her waters broke on July 6 and initial vitals were normal, with Lauren deemed ‘low risk’ after giving birth to her first child without issue.
Devastating: In a statement, Lauren said she will ‘never get over the death’
Further tests were carried out the following day, during which the unborn child’s heartbeat was detected, but when her contractions began on day three the heart was no longer beating, and Lauren was rushed to hospital.
Following a two hour birth more than ten doctors desperately fought to save Lorena by performing chest compressions and administering adrenalin, but to no avail.
She added that after Lorena passed away, Charlie’s family went to Lauren’s home and cleared away the birthing pool.
Lauren is planning Lorena’s funeral – which will be private – and said would like to dedicate her time to working with baby loss charities to help other parents.
She said: ‘Each day I take it as it comes. Without Larose I would not be here. She is getting me through every day.’
She has said she wants to know why her daughter died for her own sanity and has asked for an autopsy to be performed.
Lauren revealed the heartbreaking news her newborn baby had died earlier this month.
Taking to Instagram to share a picture of Lorena touching her hand, Lauren wrote that she ‘can’t understand’ why her daughter has passed away after she went through pregnancy and labour without complications, adding that she and partner Charles have been left ‘broken’ by the tragedy.
Lauren wrote: ‘Lorena [angel emoji] R.I.P 08.07.22 she was the most beautiful healthy baby I’ve ever seen just like her sister @babylarose.x …
‘Words can’t describe as a mother losing your baby that I carried for all these months perfectly and gave birth too for my angel to be taken from me [angel emoji].
‘There was no pregnancy or labour complications and she was fine & healthy but I am not going into detail right now just know that there was nothing wrong with her or myself she was perfect.
‘I can’t understand it she is so so beautiful Larose twin so similar.. I am broken [heartbreak emoji].’
Lauren admitted she will ‘never ever get over’ the tragic loss of her daughter and requested time and space to grieve while focusing her attention on her elder child.
She continued: ‘I am back home from hospital. Me & Charlie spent as much time with our baby girl Lorena and I haven’t said my goodbye yet [heartbreak emojis].
‘Please can I ask photographers to respect our privacy right now as we have a lot of grieving to do and funeral organising that I just need this time & with my baby girl Larose she is my rock that’s getting me through this or I wouldn’t survive…
Parents: Lauren and Charles are parents to Lauren’s first daughter Larose, with Charles saying their newborn looked just like her older sister (pictured with their firstborn)
‘I will never ever get over this but I will learn how to live everyday with Lorena in my heart she will be with me always and I will be with her again one day…
‘My [angel emoji] Lorena I love you so much [heartbreak emoji](sic).’
Her partner Charles Drury paid tribute to his late newborn daughter soon after.
Charles, who raises 11-month old daughter Larose with Lauren, took to his Instagram later in the day, writing: ‘Your little heart will forever beat inside mine.’
Charles wrote: ‘Lorena Drury – 8/7/22.
‘Our beautiful baby girl so perfect in every way, 8/7/22 will always be your day. Your little heart will forever beat inside mine, I’ll love you until the end of time.
‘You remind me so much like your big sister, you’d have looked like little twins, Larose will always know how beautiful & strong you were.
‘I promise you I’ll look after your mummy & sister forever, just look over us all & keep me strong, show me signs that you’re up in heaven where you belong. I’m sorry it had to be this way but I know we’ll be together again some day.’
‘This isn’t something I thought I’d ever have to write but I’m so proud to be your daddy, I’ll see you soon baby girl but for now sleep tight.’
If you have been affected by anything in this article, please contact the UK Child Bereavement line on 0800 02 888 40 or The Lullaby Trust on 0808 8026868.
Touching: Lauren revealed she has had prints of her daughter’s hands and feet made and was given this beautiful candle
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