Phillip Schofield was 'shaking with nerves' on DOI after coming out

Phillip Schofield was ‘shaking with nerves’ backstage on Dancing On Ice before his first live show after coming out as gay, reveals Ashley Banjo

Phillip Schofield was ‘shaking with nerves’ backstage on Dancing On Ice during his first show after coming out as gay. 

The TV presenter, 57, uploaded a statement on Instagram on February 7 explaining to his social media followers that he is gay and then spoke about it on This Morning. 

Dancing On Ice judge Ashley Banjo told The Sun Online that Phillip was nervous before his first live show after the announcement where he became emotional. 

Nervous: Phillip Schofield, 57, was ‘shaking with nerves’ backstage on Dancing On Ice during his first show after coming out as gay

He said: ‘I didn’t plan to make him cry but I said what I felt in the moment. It just felt right.

‘Before the show he was shaking with nerves backstage. It felt right to tell him ‘it’s all good, let’s get on with it’. 

On the show, Ashley told him: ‘Phil, it’s been a big week, a big big week. You have always been an absolute legend but never, never, ever more so than this week, my friend. 

‘I think I speak on behalf of all of us when I say we’ve got nothing but love and respect for you.’ 

Ashley Banjo said: ‘Before the show he was shaking with nerves backstage. It felt right to tell him ‘it’s all good, let’s get on with it’

Phillip is married to wife Stephanie and the couple are parents to Molly, 27, and Ruby, 24. 

The presenter revealed he had been leading the ‘perfect life’ after getting married and raising his two children, claiming he hadn’t wanted anything to get in the way of his happiness.

But he said he was ‘naive’ to think he could suppress his sexuality when he married Stephanie 27 years ago, and he didn’t consider his sexuality as it was such a ‘joyous time’ for him.

Phillip also admitted he battled depression as he struggled with his sexuality, and even sought therapy to come to terms with it, before deciding he found it more helpful speaking to friends in private.

 

Announcement: Phillip appeared on This Morning to confirm he was gay, in news that shocked the nation, as he suffered ‘inner conflict’ and is now ready to ‘celebrate and be proud’ 

His announcement on This Morning last week has racked up more than five-and-a-half million views on YouTube so far, and is quickly becoming one of the daytime programme’s most watched ever clips.

In one of the show’s most emotional moments since it hit screens in 1988, Phillip opened up about his sexuality to co-presenter Holly Willoughby.

Between 10am to 10.15, when Phillip segment was on, the show racked up 1.83million viewers, compared with last week’s ratings of 800,000.

Many people unable to witness the extraordinary episode live flocked to YouTube, where the show shares snippets to its channel.

Open and honest: Phil said he was ‘naive’ to think he could suppress his sexuality when got married, and he didn’t consider his sexuality as it was such a ‘joyous time’ for him

The most popular clip ever is from eight years ago and shows an interview with a woman claiming to have the world’s biggest breasts – it racked up 25 million views.

The show began with Holly reading out Phillip’s statement before saying: ‘I think we all just take a breath at that point, reading that I can hear your voice, the pain, how difficult it is for you, this is a big day. I know this is something you’ve been living with for a really long time’.

Phillip responded: ‘It’s funny because everyone I’ve spoken to, and you, have all been so supportive and so loving and caring, and my entire family to a person have grabbed us and said it’s ok, we love you we’re proud of you…

Two years ago, This Morning celebrated Phillip and Steph’s 25th silver wedding anniversary during the show (pictured in 2004)

‘Every person I tell it gets a little lighter and a little lighter, at the same time I have made this decision which is essential for me and essential for my head and that is principally the reason I have done this. They have been supporting while we get to this moment because we all know it was coming…

‘We’ve never had any secrets. It is tough but it’s not something that has happened quickly, I have had to deal with this in my head for quite some time, we’ve gone through this together, we have been honest and have been open and Stephanie as I said, you know’.

Quick to lavish praise on his wife, he said: ‘She’s amazing, she’s incredible, there’s no one in my life who would have supported me. As a wife the way she’s supported me, she’s astonishing, literally astonishing, it’s a good questions, you know this has been bothered me for a very long time…

‘Everyone does these things at their own speed in their own time when the time is right, there’s no question it has in recent times consumed my head, and has become an issue in my head, and so I got to the stage where I thought we sit here every day and I’m over there and some amazingly brave incredible person is sitting here and I’m listening to their story and thinking oh my God you’re so brave, and I’m thinking I have to be that person.’

Family: Phillip with daughters Molly, 27, and Ruby, 24, and his wife. They met when they were both working for the BBC and married in 1993 (pictured in 2018) 

‘I’ve no secrets’: Full transcript from Phillip Schofield’s interview with Holly Willoughby on This Morning

‘It’s funny because, everyone I’ve spoken to, you, have all been so supportive and so loving and caring.

‘And my entire family to a person have grabbed us and said it’s OK, it’s OK, we love you, we’re proud of you.

‘And every person I tell it gets a little lighter and a little lighter but at the same time, you know, I have made this decision which is essential for me and essential for my head and that’s principally the decision why I’ve done this.

‘Of course I’m really very aware that Steph and the girls are at home watching this and we’re all together, and we spent a lot of time together, we spend a lot of time together obviously.

‘And they’ve been supporting us as we got to this moment and we all knew it was coming.

A pillar of support: TV presenter Phillip Schofield on ITV’s This Morning talking with Holly Willoughby today about his announcement that he is gay

‘So, yeah, I mean I feel a little lighter, but I’m also very aware, there’s no question that it causes pain and it causes upset. I’ve no secrets. We’ve never had any secrets. Tough, it is tough, but this is not something that’s happened quickly. I’ve had to deal with this in my head for quite some time.

‘We’ve gone through this together and we’ve been honest and we’ve been open. Steph, as I said, I can’t write in any statement what I feel about that women.

‘She is amazing, she’s incredible. There’s no one in my life who would have supported me the way, as a wife, as the way she supported me. She’s astonishing, literally astonishing.

‘It’s a good question (why now). You know this has been bothering me for a very long time and I think everybody does these things at their own speed, at their own time, when they feel the time is right.

‘I’ve no secrets’: Full transcript from Phillip Schofield’s interview with Holly Willoughby on This Morning

‘And there’s no question that it has in recent times consumed my head and has become an issue in my head.

‘And so I got to the stage where I thought we sit here every day, and I’m over there and some amazingly brave incredible person is sitting here, and I’m listening to their story and thinking ‘oh my God, you’re so brave, oh my God, you’re so brave’.

‘And I’m thinking ”I have to be that person, I have to be that person”. I think all you can be in your life is honest with yourself. I was getting to the point where I knew I wasn’t honest with myself, I was getting to the point where I didn’t like myself very much because I wasn’t being honest with myself.

‘And so, when is the right time, when is the right time to do it? And as a family, it’s the right time.

‘There are people around the world, there are people in this country, there will be people watching this, and we always say talk to someone, and believe me, believe me, when we say that and we do say that a lot on this show, you must talk to someone, you must talk to someone, i have and it’s helped a lot.

‘And it’s brought me back – i mentioned those dark places in the statement – talking to people does bring you back. And in some cases talking to people saves you. You have to discuss it, with my friends, with my family, with my wife, we’ve talked it through – and we have to talk it through.

‘This is my decision, this is absolutely my decision. It was something I knew that I had to do. And I don’t know what the world will be like now – I don’t know how this will be taken, or what people will think.

He said: ‘But at the same time I will sit here and say actually, I’m proud of myself today. And I am proud of myself today’

‘But would I say is that yes, I am very conscious of the hurt, and so my overriding emotion with my family is obviously going to be guilt, because I do feel guilty that this can’t be anything other than a painful process for them.

‘But at the same time I will sit here and say actually, I’m proud of myself today. And I am proud of myself today. It wasn’t easy but they (my daughters) were, they are so amazing in their love and support.

‘I sat them down and I told them and they jumped up and they gave me a hug, a big hug, a long hug, and then they hugged Steph and they said it’s OK, we’ll be OK, we’ll always be a family, always us four, is what we always call ourselves. We’ll always be that.

‘It was the same with my mum, my mum is watching this today. She’s been on the phone this morning – hope you’re OK. I went down to see her, she’s down in Cornwall, and I went down to see her. And I told her and she said ‘oh, OK, well, I don’t care’ – and that’s the same with everyone.

‘No I don’t think so (thinking about future relationships) – I’m not thinking there. I’m doing each day at a time now, this has always been a slow process and there is no fast process after this.

‘This was the big day and this was the day that I knew everything was pointing towards and I could not have don’t it if it hadn’t been you. So afterwards I don’t know, but no, there’s no one, I’m not rushing out to anybody.’

His side of the story: Phillip was open and honest during the appearance in which he chatted to his good friend

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