Phillip Schofield: weight plummeted to 9 stone

EXCLUSIVE: ‘People were asking if I was ill’: Phillip Schofield admits his weight plummeted to 9 stone after he lost 3 stone due to the stress of coming out as gay

  • Phillip said he decided to drop weight a few years ago after feeling that he looked chunky in a photograph taken in the Hamptons
  • He said: ‘I was over twelve stone. I put myself on the 5:2 diet, and it worked’
  • ‘My weight dropped to just under 11st and ITV asked the office if I was okay’ 
  • After shrinking his stomach, stress meant he couldn’t eat much and he dropped to 9 stone 
  • Phillip came out as gay on This Morning in February
  • He has been married to supportive wife Stephanie since 1993 and they have two daughters together  

Phillip Schofield has revealed his weight plummeted to just nine stone after he dropped three stone over the stress of coming out as gay. 

Writing in his autobiography, Life’s What You Make It, the This Morning host, 58, said: ‘A few years ago, Steph [his wife] and I had a wonderful holiday in the Hamptons.

‘We’d had our picture taken by a friend and, when I saw it, I was horrified by how chunky I looked.

‘People were asking if I was ill’: Phillip Schofield has admitted his weight plummeted to 9 stone (left; pictured in February) after he lost 3 stone due to the stress of coming out as gay

‘I was probably over twelve stone. I immediately put myself on the 5:2 diet, and it worked, so much so that my weight dropped to just under eleven stone and ITV asked the office if I was okay.’

He continued: ‘I decided that eleven stone was as far as I should go. In the process, I’d shrunk my stomach, so my appetite was much smaller and the weight was easy to maintain.

‘Now, I couldn’t eat at all. I was in such a state of turmoil that I had no interest in food. Steph kept trying to get me to eat, but I couldn’t face anything.

Conflicted: Phillip revealed he was in a very dark place before coming out as gay on This Morning in Febraury with co-host and best friend Holly WIlloughby by his side 

‘My weight dropped, and as it hit nine stone twelve pounds the This Morning viewers started to notice.

‘I was getting Tweets from people asking if I was ill, or saying that if I was on a diet I should stop, because I’d lost too much weight.’

Phillip appeared on Lorraine on Thursday to talk about his new book and the host admitted she was worried about his weight when she saw him in December.  

He told her: ‘It was the toughest time ever, when you’re going through something like that and trying to pick your way through it.

‘It’s not in my nature to hurt people. There were so may thoughts going through loops in my head. I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep.

‘I knew spent whole weekend staring into fire, thinking what would I do. I told everything to Steph, we spoke through everything, there were no secrets., what I knew, she knew.  

Phillip has been married to Steph since 1993 but he came out as gay on This Morning back in February after wrestling with his sexuality for some time. 

He said: ‘Would coming out save me? Would it fix what was wrong in my head?

‘I had absolutely no idea if that level of honesty and immediate, intense public scrutiny would just make it worse.’

Phil has said he did not know he was gay when he married Steph and he told her when he was aware of his sexuality. 

In his book, Phillip admitted to feeling as though he was in a dark place as he battled his hidden feelings. 

He said: ‘Telling the girls almost made me sick. Steph and I couldn’t decide who should drive the car to tell them’ (pictured together in 2018) 

He said: ‘All over Christmas and the New Year I was very low and my head was in an extremely dark place.

‘As I watched the fireworks explode over London on the TV on New Year’s Eve, taking us into 2020, I sobbed quietly in the dark.

‘The dawn of a New Year, and every bit of it looked terrifying. It’s hard to explain how I felt, and to some extent still sometimes feel.

‘It’s like being inside the blackest cloud and feeling consumed by crushing, desperate sadness.

‘Nothing and no one can make it better. There’s an overpowering feeling of hopelessness that is very hard to shake.’

Phillip credited his wife and children for supporting him so much through this time. 

Married: Phillip has credited his wife Stephanie for loving him unconditionally – pictured in 2018 – they married in 1993 

He said: ‘If I thought about what the potential cost would be, it just plunged me further into crisis.

‘One difficult evening when I was talking it all through with Steph, I said that I felt like I’d fallen into the crack between two lives.

‘How could I possibly align the two? How could I understand the implications? I could see no way forward and no way back. It all seemed so huge and so frightening.

‘She continually reassured me that, no matter what, she unconditionally loved me, and so did the girls.’

Phillip knew that he had to be honest with people in order to be authentic to himself. 

He said: ‘As with so many things in my life, I can worry and torture myself but, ultimately, I knew what I had to do. I had to come out. Whatever the cost.

‘Telling the girls almost made me sick. Steph and I couldn’t decide who should drive the car to tell them.

‘Both our legs were like jelly. Steph drove in the end. They were extraordinary.

‘My beautiful, wise, smart girls were suddenly, briefly, the parents as they leapt up to hug me and tell me it was going to be okay.

‘I knew how much it hurt them, and still does, but I’m so bloody proud of them, and I’m so proud of how they have become fierce, protective lionesses around their mum.’

‘I’ve no secrets’: Full transcript from Phillip Schofield’s interview with Holly Willoughby on This Morning

‘It’s funny because, everyone I’ve spoken to, you, have all been so supportive and so loving and caring.

‘And my entire family to a person have grabbed us and said it’s OK, it’s OK, we love you, we’re proud of you.

‘And every person I tell it gets a little lighter and a little lighter but at the same time, you know, I have made this decision which is essential for me and essential for my head and that’s principally the decision why I’ve done this.

‘Of course I’m really very aware that Steph and the girls are at home watching this and we’re all together, and we spent a lot of time together, we spend a lot of time together obviously.

‘And they’ve been supporting us as we got to this moment and we all knew it was coming.

A pillar of support: TV presenter Phillip Schofield on ITV’s This Morning talking with Holly Willoughby today about his announcement that he is gay

‘So, yeah, I mean I feel a little lighter, but I’m also very aware, there’s no question that it causes pain and it causes upset. I’ve no secrets. We’ve never had any secrets. Tough, it is tough, but this is not something that’s happened quickly. I’ve had to deal with this in my head for quite some time.

‘We’ve gone through this together and we’ve been honest and we’ve been open. Steph, as I said, I can’t write in any statement what I feel about that women.

‘She is amazing, she’s incredible. There’s no one in my life who would have supported me the way, as a wife, as the way she supported me. She’s astonishing, literally astonishing.

‘It’s a good question (why now). You know this has been bothering me for a very long time and I think everybody does these things at their own speed, at their own time, when they feel the time is right.

‘I’ve no secrets’: Full transcript from Phillip Schofield’s interview with Holly Willoughby on This Morning

‘And there’s no question that it has in recent times consumed my head and has become an issue in my head.

‘And so I got to the stage where I thought we sit here every day, and I’m over there and some amazingly brave incredible person is sitting here, and I’m listening to their story and thinking ‘oh my God, you’re so brave, oh my God, you’re so brave’.

‘And I’m thinking ”I have to be that person, I have to be that person”. I think all you can be in your life is honest with yourself. I was getting to the point where I knew I wasn’t honest with myself, I was getting to the point where I didn’t like myself very much because I wasn’t being honest with myself.

‘And so, when is the right time, when is the right time to do it? And as a family, it’s the right time.

‘There are people around the world, there are people in this country, there will be people watching this, and we always say talk to someone, and believe me, believe me, when we say that and we do say that a lot on this show, you must talk to someone, you must talk to someone, i have and it’s helped a lot.

‘And it’s brought me back – i mentioned those dark places in the statement – talking to people does bring you back. And in some cases talking to people saves you. You have to discuss it, with my friends, with my family, with my wife, we’ve talked it through – and we have to talk it through.

‘This is my decision, this is absolutely my decision. It was something I knew that I had to do. And I don’t know what the world will be like now – I don’t know how this will be taken, or what people will think.

He said: ‘But at the same time I will sit here and say actually, I’m proud of myself today. And I am proud of myself today’

‘But would I say is that yes, I am very conscious of the hurt, and so my overriding emotion with my family is obviously going to be guilt, because I do feel guilty that this can’t be anything other than a painful process for them.

‘But at the same time I will sit here and say actually, I’m proud of myself today. And I am proud of myself today. It wasn’t easy but they (my daughters) were, they are so amazing in their love and support.

‘I sat them down and I told them and they jumped up and they gave me a hug, a big hug, a long hug, and then they hugged Steph and they said it’s OK, we’ll be OK, we’ll always be a family, always us four, is what we always call ourselves. We’ll always be that.

‘It was the same with my mum, my mum is watching this today. She’s been on the phone this morning – hope you’re OK. I went down to see her, she’s down in Cornwall, and I went down to see her. And I told her and she said ‘oh, OK, well, I don’t care’ – and that’s the same with everyone.

‘No I don’t think so (thinking about future relationships) – I’m not thinking there. I’m doing each day at a time now, this has always been a slow process and there is no fast process after this.

‘This was the big day and this was the day that I knew everything was pointing towards and I could not have don’t it if it hadn’t been you. So afterwards I don’t know, but no, there’s no one, I’m not rushing out to anybody.’

His side of the story: Phillip was open and honest during the appearance in which he chatted to his good friend

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