She is the judge who is winning over The X Factor fans with her bubbly wit.
But Ayda Field has been hiding a secret pain – she still has not dealt with the sudden death of her once long-lost dad.
Viewers will see the actress break down on tomorrow night’s show as contestant J-Sol sings a song in memory of his mum Victoria.
She passed away unexpectedly and that sparked Ayda, married to singer and fellow judge Robbie Williams, to tell of her agony in losing dad Haldun Evecan.
He died, at 68, of a heart attack in 2014 – just years after they had been reunited.
Ayda, 39, said: “I will never forget how the world swallowed me up on that day when I found out.”
Then speaking to the Mirror, the mum-of-three explained that J-Sol’s self-penned song made her realise she had been avoiding her grief.
She said: “When he sang the first note, I was like, ‘Oh my God, here we go’.
“It touched me. I feel I needed to hear that song. I needed to feel some things I wasn’t ready to deal with. I was grateful.”
Ayda’s parents, film producer Gwen Field and Turkish advertising exec Haldun, split when she was three.
Haldun went to Istanbul, where he remarried and had daughters, Ilgi, 30, and Oyku, 26.
Ayda had no contact with him until she was 18, though Haldun said he fought a legal battle to see her.
At 26, she went to Turkey to see him, and phoned him before her California wedding to Robbie in 2010. Haldun later said: “I told her I didn’t give her much and certainly not as much love as I would have liked and that will haunt me.”
He had offered Ayda a second wedding in Turkey as he would not be at the first.
Though Ayda is now close with her half-sisters, the chance for that never happened.
In an added blow, she could not fly to his funeral as she was heavily pregnant with her second child Charlton Valentine.
Haldun did once talk of his angst at leaving Ayda after his marriage break-up.
He said: “I’ll never forget when we said farewell. She said ‘Dad, do not go’. I said to her, ‘My daughter, I will come back’. But unfortunately I came late.”
BRIT school product J-Sol, from East London, who has opened for Boyz II Men, also had an effect on the other judges.
Louis Tomlinson, whose mum Johannah Deakin, 43, died from leukaemia in 2016, says: “Such a beautiful song that has touched us all on this panel.”
Simon Cowell said he still “talks every day” to mum Julie, 89, who died in 2015, and dad Eric, 81, who passed away in 1999.
- The X Factor, ITV, tomorrow night at 8.35pm
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